Speaking of my bachelor degree and college, I've had a lot of thoughts over the past few weeks over how much I've grown and changed, even in the past year. Marcus and I are getting married in three weeks, and I am so happy in the place that we and I am at. It took a long time to get where I am now.
Do you ever wish you could go back and tell your former-self things? I hate saying that I have regrets, because I think that everything that happens in your life leads you to where you are now, and right now I am very happy. However, if I have any regrets it is how I treated certain people in my life. I spent a long time unsure of myself, semi-unhappy, and letting my opinions be easily influenced by other people. Its not that those people were bad, in fact they were all very good people, but when you let other peoples opinions become your own, you lose a sense of yourself. When you lose a sense of yourself, you do things you end up being not proud of. There are a few people in particular that I know I treated poorly, people who were good to me and wanted the best for me, and to those people, I want to say that I am sorry. We may not be close like we once were, but you will always be in my heart, I will always love and care for you.
So, to my former-self: Follow your heart. If something feels remotely wrong, it is wrong. If you love someone, tell them. If you miss them, tell them. If you are sorry for how you behaved, by all means, tell them. What you allow to happen, will continue to happen. Never take anyone or anything for granted. It is natural that people will come and go out of your life, but it doesn't need or have to be on bad terms. Love everyone, and be understanding, for you never know what they are going through behind the scenes. Oh, and be yourself and believe in yourself.
I am so happy to be at the point in my life where I truly feel that I can be myself, and everyone I am close to loves and respects me for who I am, including my opinions. We all make mistakes, and my friends lovingly help me through those mistakes. Marcus and I have been so blessed throughout our engagement. We have so many people who have sent well-wishes, love, and support. I am so glad that we will begin our marriage with such a great circle of friends.
I know that I would not be where I am at today without my future hubby, Marcus. I've never met anyone who is so encouraging and loving and loves me for me. He inspires me to be a better person, a better me. I am so excited to have only 20 days until I become his WIFE!!!
Thank you all for molding me into the person I am.
Love and thanks,
~Ang
Love this one!! It can be hard to reflect on the past but you focused on all the right things. I am so happy for you Angie b!!
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